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Neal Solo

This is not Old Love.

Singer/songwriter Neal Hagberg (of Neal & Leandra) releases a solo CD, "It's Not As Simple As It Seems," unlike anything you've ever heard from him.  Instead of reducing issues to sound bites, the 14 songs on this CD
put a human face on the suffering we experience and, subsequently,
cause in the world.  No topic is off limits - war, homophobia, abortion,
religious fundamentalism, or even forgiveness.

Please scroll down below the CD to check out some words from Neal regarding this project and for some discussion points on the issues brought forth on this CD.  Also, feel free to check out and contribute to the forum.  This page is to be used to discuss the songs and whatever experiences they bring up in you.  

For Neal's upcoming shows, please go to the tour page.

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It's Not As Simple As It Seems
$15.00
1. Imagine That Play
Imagine That
IMAGINE THAT

She was glad the day John Lennon died
She kept her feelings hid inside
But she cried when the mourners cried
Because he died not knowing Christ
She said he was a dangerous man
He thought he could play with God’s own plan
So God struck him down with his right hand
For his unrepentant pride

CHORUS: She is a Christian
And she will follow Christ
And Jesus died for all our sins
And she is really nice
She loves her children
And teaches them their prayers
And at the end of every day
She climbs up her stairs
And sleeps sound in her bed up there

When Matthew Shepard died that way
Strung up and tied like a bale of hay
She said it wouldn’t have happened if he weren’t gay
I’m not saying it’s right that it did
But if he would just have accepted Christ
Jesus can heal that kind of life
I’m sorry for the way he died
But just look at the way he lived

CHORUS
BRIDGE: Imagine, imagine, imagine that

And on the day we went to war
She said do you know what we’re fighting for
The chance for unsaved babies to know the Lord
So they won’t have to go to hell
The only way to set them free
Is Jesus and democracy
We’ve been called to help them see
What they can’t see for themselves

CHORUS

words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2004 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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2. Wichita Play
Wichita
WICHITA

Something’s wrong, she moved before
But she’s hardly moving anymore
The doctor says it’s nothing he foresaw
It’s four hundred miles to Wichita

Chorus: It’s the loneliest road
Did I break some law
All I know is it’s four hundred miles
To Wichita

All those faces screaming Jesus’ name
Heaping shame on top of my shame
All those signs about my God
I walk through the lines of Wichita

Chorus

Bridge: Mother of mercy, rock me to sleep
Are you in this room or out on those streets
Where are the hands to deliver me God
Here in the cradle of Wichita

Let me hold what might have been
Her name is Grace, now say your amen
And I’ll go home to mourn my loss
Four hundred miles from Wichita

Chorus: It’s the loneliest sound
A cry so soft
All I know is it’s four hundred miles
To Wichita


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2005 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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3. Mercy Play
Mercy
MERCY

He took her, they said he took her hard
Beneath the motion sensor in our back yard
Moths swirling round, hand over her mouth
All her thoughts were going south
She just waited it out
She just waited it out

They tracked him down, locked him away
For what that boy did to my girl that day
Do you know what it’s like to go to sleep at night
Cry yourself awake, find your dreams have died
‘Cause something new was inside
Something new was inside

Tell me this all isn’t true
Tell me what I should do
Tell me that mercy is infinite

That child in her, how could she keep him
Born straight out of a monster’s sin
I’m a Christian I told my girl
But some things aren’t meant to walk this world
That baby is one of them
That baby is one of them

Tell me this all isn’t true
Tell me what I should do
Tell me that mercy is infinite

She cried hard, tried to explain
It ain’t the baby’s fault, I’m not ashamed
He needs a home, he deserves a name
I’ll give him mine, you’re not to blame
Daddy, you’re not to blame
Daddy

Tell me this all isn’t true
Tell me what I should do
Tell me that mercy is infinite
Tell me that mercy is infinite


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c2004 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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4. She Play
She
SHE

She is a memory
Slipping away
She is a buried word
Hardly ever heard
To this day

She is a flicker
She is a ghost
She walks the halls at night
You can hear her cry
Almost

She is the water
She is a wave
She is the open sea
And a watery
Dark grave

She is a sacrifice
She is a lamb
She’s being burned alive
On the altar of the cold as ice
Great I Am

She is a mystery
She is a clue
She holds the key to life
But the answer lies
In you

She is a prisoner
Darkness her chain
When I can’t see anything
She keeps whispering
My name

She is
She is
She is


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2005 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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5. They're Coming For You Play
They're Coming For You
THEY’RE COMING FOR YOU

They’re coming for you with torches bright
Marching on the the blackest night
They’ve got a spin to make you reel
This ain’t your father’s Oldsmobile

Subtler than the Ku Klux Klan
Smoother than McCarthy’s plan
Their voice has an angelic ring
You won’t know what is happening

They’re coming for you

Painting on their heavenly smiles
They’ll march you out in single file
Singing hymns to the holy One
Daring you to cut and run

They dress like sheep but they are wolves
They’ll tear your flesh and burn your books
Break your back with the shepherd’s rod
Then feed you to their monster God

They’re coming for you
They’re coming for you

They’ll kill the dove and wash their hands
Hold aloft the olive branch
Toss it to the frenzied horde
Dance and shout and praise the Lord

They’re coming for your children’s bones
Claiming God is theirs alone
Feed them lies like candy canes
Til poison slowly fills their veins

They’re coming for you
They’re coming for you

And if you step out of their line
Watch your back, they’re right behind
They’ll push you off their cliff of truth
In God’s own name they’ll bury you

You think it’s best to maybe wait
You think I overestimate
If you think that then think again
I know because I am one of them

They’re coming for you
They’re coming for you, they’re coming, they’re coming

words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2007 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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6. If Grace Is True Play
If Grace Is True
IF GRACE IS TRUE

If grace is true, God will save you
And all the Jews, and Hitler, too
Those with an overflowing cup
And those who want to blow us up

All little children will get in
With those who stole their innocence
Who once were children just like them
And will be children once again

But we know grace is not fair
And that is something we can’t bear
So we take eternal truth
And snuff it out that’s what we do

Replace it with a temporal flame
One that we control and tame

And here’s the rub, though we have stayed
And say we’ve kept the narrow way
And kept the unclean ones away
God welcomes us in anyway

If grace is true


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2008 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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7. The Noose Play
The Noose
THE NOOSE

I looked the girl in the eyes
She could have been my daughter
I pulled the trigger, closed my eyes
And cut her down like water
What do you do, some of these people are nuts
And we are tense and tired
When she came walking up to me
I thought that she was wired

This is not what I do back at home
I teach science to seventh graders
But no one knows the chemistry
That turns us into haters
All I wanted was a little extra cash
You know teachers don’t make a killing
A few reservist weekend stints
To save for college for my children

I’m alive and she is not
This world is one soul lighter
But she is pressing down on me
And I can’t breathe and I can’t see
The noose is getting tighter

I’m walking in a dream to night
She’s walking there beside me
She smiles and reaches out a hand
I think she came to guide me
But her hand has turned to blood
And it’s all over my hands
I wake up in a pool of sweat
In a land that isn’t my land

Repeat Chorus

I’m just trying to do what is best
I’m just trying to follow orders
I’m just trying to help these people out
While I’m dodging goddamned mortars

What do you think one of these crazies would do
If they faced down my daughter
Would they risk it all and trust her smile
Or cut her down like water

Repeat Chorus

I looked the girl in the eyes, I looked the girl in the eyes, I looked that girl in the eyes

words and music by Neal Hagberg
c2005 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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8. Forgive Me Play
Forgive Me
FORGIVE ME

Forgive me I don’t know what I do
Forgive me for what I’ve done to you
Forgive me when I refused to see
That you were no different than me

Forgive me when I’d become so scared
All reason would vanish in thin air
Forgive me, for when I could bring relief
I spent it bringing you to grief

Forgive me for all the things I’d say
That made you turn your heart away
If I had just put away my pride
I could have spared you so many tears you’ve cried

I suffer, I make you suffer, too
These arrows are ones I meant for you
I take them and break them all in two
And leave myself wide open to you


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2008 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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9. Don't Tell Them Play
Don't Tell Them
DON’T TELL THEM


Sara never heard about the birds and
Sara never heard about the bees
Sara never knew how babies got here
Until her boyfriend got between the sheets

Chorus: Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause they’re not old enough to choose it
Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause all they’ll want to do is do it

Chelsea never knew why she felt different
All her friends liked boys and she liked girls
Praying harder never stopped the feelings
They only stopped the night she left this world

Chorus: Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause they’re not old enough to choose it
Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause all they’ll want to do is do it

Bridge: I love you and you love me
We’re a happy family

Charlie had a roach clip and a meth pipe
And he had a gun to guard them both
Sometimes Charlie wished his parents knew him
All they ever said was just say no

Chorus: Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause they’re not old enough to choose it
Don’t tell them about it
‘Cause all they’ll want to do is do it


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c2004 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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10. Plain and True Play
Plain and True
PLAIN AND TRUE

When we first met
The stars fell from the skies
The scales fell from my eyes
It was like a baby being born
Until then
I believed I would live my life alone
My heart would be a stone
Where no new life could be formed

Chorus: But it was, plain and true
You loved me and I loved you
In this life what more can we ask
Than to find someone who will see behind the mask
And say I love you

We lived our lives
And knew that there was something more to this
We had a couple kids
The place turned into one revolving door
We go to church
They go to school, we’re not alone
Our house became a home
With love at its core

Chorus: And it is, plain and true
You love me and I love you
In this life what more can we ask
Than to find someone who will see behind the mask
And say I love you

And the first time that our son came home with friends tagging along
And said here’s my mom and here’s my other mom
I believed again that everything was going to be alright
Like the first time that you kissed me goodnight

Chorus: And it is, plain and true
You love me and I love you
In this life what more can we ask
Than to find someone who will see behind the mask
And say I love you


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c2005, Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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11. The Poor Play
The Poor
THE POOR

You will always have them here
There is nothing you can do
They are gum you cannot scrape
From the bottom of your shoe

They are wine that has gone sour
When you swish it in your mouth
They are standing in the way
When you pack up to head south

They will grab onto your leg
They will hold on for dear life
Throw them crumbs and you will find
You are feeding parasites

If you open up that door
They’ll invite all of their friends
They will strip your cupboards bare
Until you are one of them

Even if you save a few
You won’t even make a dent
Do you want to waste your life
On a battle you can’t win

When the ship is going down
If you’re honest you will know
There is only so much room
In a little life boat

So you gonna give your seat
So that one of them can live
This world needs you more than them
There is nothing they can give
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing

words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2008 Uncle Gus Music
www.nealandleandra.com
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12. Luis Play
Luis
LUIS

I know the corner on County Road 3
I know how to say thank you and please
I know they think I’m stealing my pay
But I know they’ll hire me anyway

I know all about waiting in line
I know all about ‘come back next time’
I know about wanting to do what is right
And trying to put food on the table each night

I know they will not turn me in
I know they think what I do is a sin
I know their yards and I know their pools
I know my children can’t go to their schools

I know my son shouldn’t have died that way
I know I blame myself every day
I know my wife, she might never forgive
And if we went to the doctor our son might have lived

But if we had gone, I know where we’d be
I’ve got three families counting on me
Do you know what you’d do if it were your kid
I know less now than I thought I did

I know I don’t have time to cry
I know I have to say goodbye
We found a priest and an unused grave
We buried him after I worked all day

I know they lock their doors at night
I know they think we’re all alike
I know I miss the Mexican breeze
They all call me Pedro, but my name is Luis

They all call me Pedro, but my name is Luis


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2007 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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13. Riding Dumbo Play
Riding Dumbo
RIDING DUMBO

I am riding Dumbo
You are eating steak
My daughter rides beside me
Above the mermaid lake
You are chewing slowly
I am laughing loud
You cannot hold your children
But both of us are proud

I’m drifting on Splash Mountain
You’re drifting in your thoughts
Brer Rabbit finally got away
But you, my friend, got caught
The log flume drops five stories
Shoots down into the light
Everyone gets baptized
Your cell door opens wide

I’m on Aladdin’s carpet
You are walking down the hall
Steps echo out your sentence
You’ve no remorse at all
My eyes are on my daughter
The wonder on her face
Your eyes are staring straight ahead
At your last resting place

I’m strapped into Thunder Mountain
You’re strapped on a board
Everybody’s watching
We both invoke the Lord
The jerky start, close the eyes
We’re going for a ride
We both say we’re sure, but God only knows
What’s on the other side

I’m blasting through Space Mountain
I’m shaking like a fool
I’m flying, screaming oh my God
Is that what you’re thinking, too
You believe the God you’re heading for
Is full of mercy, grace, and truth
And if Jesus would have been there
He would have killed that doctor, too

words and music by Neal Hagberg
c2005 Uncle Gus Music/BMI
www.nealandleandra.com
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14. When That Morning Comes Play
When That Morning Comes
WHEN THAT MORNING COMES

When that morning comes where no secret’s hid
Will they be undone all these things I did
All my words in haste, will they be unsaid
All my fiery thoughts, all my stubbornness
When that morning comes

When that morning comes with a breaking sky
Will God welcome us with a lullaby
And with open arms to be gathered in
Will she rock away my countless sins
When that morning comes

Oh, my soul cries
Oh, my life is slipping by
All my dreams and fears
Will they one day disappear
When that morning comes
So clear

When God gathers up all my enemies
And sits them down at the feast with me
Will I pour their wine, will I break their bread
Will we laugh and shake our wondering heads
When that morning comes

Chorus

Here comes that morning
I see it coming
It’s shining for you
It’s shining for me
It’s shining for all my enemies


words and music by Neal Hagberg
c 2008 Uncle Gus Music
www.nealandleandra.com
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A few words from Neal
You may choose to listen to this recording all the way through in one sitting. Or you may choose to listen to one song at a time, then turn off the music and sit with it. The songs are meant to be used for reflection and conversation. They are meant to put a human face on the suffering we experience and, subsequently, cause each other in this world.

I struggled many months deciding whether or not to put this out as it is, thinking I should make it more palatable to people, and certainly more marketable. But it seemed to want to be what it is before you. Strangely enough, these songs give me comfort. I can’t explain why, but they do.

If an organization you are involved with would be interested in a workshop, artist in residency, or concert, that is available.
-- Thanks, Neal

Discussion Points
Here are some questions to ask as discussion starters with family, friends, organizations, or even people you would consider adversaries.

If you choose to do this with a group, I would recommend that ground rules be laid, so that everyone can express their experience in safety, acknowledging that everyone’s experience is different in regards to how they will react to the songs.

In my own experience, it is helpful to make clear this is not about making a political or religious statement, or even about what one ‘thinks’ about the song. The only way I have found for a fruitful discussion to take place is by keeping to one’s own experience.

Dialogue, in this usage, is for sharing experiences, not to convert, win an argument, or state a position.

That is a hard, sometimes painful, thing to do. But the rewards of it can be astounding if we are committed to listening.

Here are some possible questions that can be used to promote this dialogue:

1. What is your experience of the song?

2. What memories does it kick up in you?

3. Does the song remind you of any experience you have had or anyone you know has had?

4. In what way does this phrase relate to the song? “Understanding is the beginning of compassion.” --Thich Nhat Hanh

5. What emotions does the song evoke? Why?

6. That reminds me of…

When you have thought through or discussed some of these, you may want to ask what is a way you can build a bridge to the other side, whatever you consider the other side to be?

Please feel free to email questions, your experiences, or other questions that may be helpful to add to the list. Or add to the forum. Thanks!

 

What Others Are Saying

 

“As a songwriter, Neal Hagberg has clearly mastered the art of saying more with less.”

The Washington Post

 

“Neal Hagberg writes inspired originals.”

Minneapolis StarTribune

 

“Neal Hagberg's music is a bridge - it can help us recognize the humanity and doubts and struggles and fears we share with those we all too often consider the "other." Neal uses music, his first language, to tell hard truths beautifully. This is not background music. These are songs for the fully conscious (or those striving to be).

In these songs, Neal introduces us to people we may not be sure we wanted to meet, but their stories stay with us and change us. And that's a good thing.”

 

Julie Madden

Peace and Justice Ministries Coordinator

St. Joan of Arc, Minneapolis

 

“My students were provoked to think more deeply about the challenging issues addressed by Hagberg’s songs and to continue asking questions of themselves.  I can’t wait to have him back.”

 

Jeff Dahlseid, Professor of Biochemistry

 

“I think that music/song provides an avenue to get people to think and talk about these

uncomfortable issues which we would rather avoid.  And providing a human face, as Hagberg says, makes it both more immediate and personal; it underlines the human complexity - and cost - in ways that statistics and abstract arguments can’t.  Neal’s is risky but important work.”

 

Florence Amamato, Professor of English and Ethics

 

“Neal Hagberg is a remarkable presence.  With warmth, humor, an open and generous spirit, and a gift for mindful presence, Neal reflected with us on his own professional, artistic, and vocational journey, and on the power of story to form beliefs and world-views that animate meaningful action in the world.  We were challenged and enlightened.”

 

Chris Johnson, Director

Center For Vocational Reflection

Gustavus Adolphus College

 

 

 

 

“Neal Hagberg opened up these fragile and offensive topics in a way that didn’t lend bias to his songs.”

 

“He did an amazing job of making us think, of facilitating a conversation, of causing us to deliberate over new ideas.”

 

“His songs helped me to reconsider many of the injustices that I have long placed in the closet of my mind to collect dust.”

 

“The music Hagberg has written has really begun to stimulate conversation among us, conversations I feel are essential to our society.”

 

“Neal has a beautiful voice and provocative stage presence that hopefully will spark conversations across this community.  Together we can make a commitment to conversation.”

 

College students

 

 

"It's Not As Simple As It Seems" is one of the most provocative, challenging, disturbing and yet thoughtful and sensitive performances I've programmed in my 25-year career.  Any college which truly wishes to confront the issues of bigotry and hatred should consider staging Neal Hagberg front and center.

 

Al Behrends

College Fine Arts Programming Director

 

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